24-02-2020, 00:09
I understand i'm banned on here and i'm risking having this account ending too but i'd like to say a few things as this forum was (maybe sadly) a big part of my life. This is not a joke post or any kind of trolling.
I'm don tingley. My real name is Ben, i'm a tattooer from Leeds, as some of you already know. Recently i've had to admit to family and myself that i'm an alcoholic. I've not worked for a while now as i started caring for my grandad but his needs are now too much for me to cope with on my own. During a visit to the hospital with him i spoke to a nurse about pains i was having and a week ago i found out i have liver fibrosis, very early stage and if i stay off drink it will never affect me. I'm fine, luckily. I've tried quite a few times to stop drinking and have never lasted long, it's been a week now and i feel good. This is the longest i have gone without for over 10 years. It got pretty bad.
I first joined here 8 years ago and a lot of characters that were here aren't here anymore but if any of those are reading this post, and also people still here that i have had conflict with, i'd like to apologise for my behaviour, aggression, abuse and attitude towards all of you, no exceptions, i have no grudges and everyone is included in my apology. What is sad is that things have been so cloudy for so long that the list of people i have affected is too long for me to even remember, though i remember a fair few.
I've lashed out a lot, bitched openly and privately, and caused a lot of tension that can't be justified and has affected this forum negatively. This forum helped to kill a lot of time for me in the early years when work was slow and i was just sat around waiting to start drinking, it was a daily thing. I'm glad my posts brought some pleasure to some people back then, it was hard work posting so many vids, as the remaining posters will know.
I'm not wanting smypathy or anything, this is really just to apologise to the people that have had to put up with my shit at some point over the years, some have given it right back and some have just blocked me or ignored me, i don't blame you.
If anyone has a bad rep from me, let me know by PM and i'll remove it.
This forum has good people on it and you haven't deserved to have to put up with me whether recently or years ago. Cheers for reading, onwards and upwards hopefully
I'm don tingley. My real name is Ben, i'm a tattooer from Leeds, as some of you already know. Recently i've had to admit to family and myself that i'm an alcoholic. I've not worked for a while now as i started caring for my grandad but his needs are now too much for me to cope with on my own. During a visit to the hospital with him i spoke to a nurse about pains i was having and a week ago i found out i have liver fibrosis, very early stage and if i stay off drink it will never affect me. I'm fine, luckily. I've tried quite a few times to stop drinking and have never lasted long, it's been a week now and i feel good. This is the longest i have gone without for over 10 years. It got pretty bad.
I first joined here 8 years ago and a lot of characters that were here aren't here anymore but if any of those are reading this post, and also people still here that i have had conflict with, i'd like to apologise for my behaviour, aggression, abuse and attitude towards all of you, no exceptions, i have no grudges and everyone is included in my apology. What is sad is that things have been so cloudy for so long that the list of people i have affected is too long for me to even remember, though i remember a fair few.
I've lashed out a lot, bitched openly and privately, and caused a lot of tension that can't be justified and has affected this forum negatively. This forum helped to kill a lot of time for me in the early years when work was slow and i was just sat around waiting to start drinking, it was a daily thing. I'm glad my posts brought some pleasure to some people back then, it was hard work posting so many vids, as the remaining posters will know.
I'm not wanting smypathy or anything, this is really just to apologise to the people that have had to put up with my shit at some point over the years, some have given it right back and some have just blocked me or ignored me, i don't blame you.
If anyone has a bad rep from me, let me know by PM and i'll remove it.
This forum has good people on it and you haven't deserved to have to put up with me whether recently or years ago. Cheers for reading, onwards and upwards hopefully