12-02-2018, 11:16
Only had about 3 hours sleep after getting to bed around 5.15 or so. Forgive if I start rambling but I want to get my thoughts out while they are fresh in my mind.
If there was any remote doubt left in my mind about whether I would look to ever have any form of physical/emotional relationship with a woman, last night absolutely killed the idea of this stone dead. I know with absolute certainty that will not happen.
Last night was the most intense experience I have ever known...without any doubt. Managed to tug and edge for nearly four hours and got to the stage where I wanted the feelings of reaching the edge more than letting go itself.
Around 4...When I finally let go having taken a big snort of amyl nitrate - the sensation was like an all over head rush..every muscle seemed to be quivering, I still don't know who was on the bed with Honey...was that completely focused on her..shot so hard..the spasms took my breath away and seemed to go on and on..with my first thought being "nothing can compare with this" having incoherently shouted out something ...couldn't even think straight by then...as I was getting close to letting go...I believe that even more now. Nothing possibly could.
If there was any remote doubt left in my mind about whether I would look to ever have any form of physical/emotional relationship with a woman, last night absolutely killed the idea of this stone dead. I know with absolute certainty that will not happen.
Last night was the most intense experience I have ever known...without any doubt. Managed to tug and edge for nearly four hours and got to the stage where I wanted the feelings of reaching the edge more than letting go itself.
Around 4...When I finally let go having taken a big snort of amyl nitrate - the sensation was like an all over head rush..every muscle seemed to be quivering, I still don't know who was on the bed with Honey...was that completely focused on her..shot so hard..the spasms took my breath away and seemed to go on and on..with my first thought being "nothing can compare with this" having incoherently shouted out something ...couldn't even think straight by then...as I was getting close to letting go...I believe that even more now. Nothing possibly could.